just look at how people see me. How I've been walked on all these years. How no one appreciates me, or anything that I do for this world. Despite all the things I've had to deal with, despite the pain people have caused me. I still stand here, strong as ever. I am no different than anyone else. I'm human. Why do people discriminate?-----Each day I go through the same shit trying to find peace. I'm learning but, slowly. I have so many questions running through my head. Why does people hate me? Why can't I just fit in? What kind people can I actually count on to be my friends? As for now, I'm taking one step and day at a time. I don't let the little things bother me anymore. I am going to be the best person I can be, but without changing who I really am, or what I believe in. I don't care what people think about me anymore, it's worthless, and pointless, I learned that the hard way. I have opened my eyes and know how to judge the people who can, and can not be here for me. Though, all of that shit has happen to be, I am very thankful for a lot of good memories I have kept after all these years, so it's not all that bad. To be honest, I can count the people who I trust with two hands. I've changed and grown stronger as a person, as a human being. :::I keep telling myself that one day I'll find a special man who will love me and appreciate me for who I am and needs me just as much as I need him. What I want most in life is a family to take care of.. I'm so tired of all the liars and selfish people out there.. My heart is just so exhausted right now because I tend to give everything to someone who I think loves me:::: If I'm really as beautiful and sweet and loving as I've been told,, why can't I find someone who genuinely loves me and thinks I'm worth their time? Why can't I find someone who thinks I'm worth keeping.. I feel so worthless right now and all I want is a guy who can give me even half the love I will give him.. One who won't talk to me every second he can just to turn out to be a fake 1 year down the line and keep telling me he loves me and cares about me when he doesn't.::: If the guy who will love me for me is reading this,. what little trust and faith I have left is yours for the taking. I have so much love to give and I try to better myself everyday.. I'm so sick of being hurt and I need love so badly... I need someone who needs my love and doesn't make me beg like a dog for his.
PS-- IM A BREAD WINNER OF MY FAMILY PLS HELP ME REACH MY GOAL EVERY SINGLE DAY THANKS LOVEYAHH :)