Thelexmachine's Bio and Free Webcam
- Real Name:
- Lex Spectrum
- Birth Date:
- May 24, 1981
- Interested In:
- Men, Women, Trans, Couples
- the wrong planet
- Last Broadcast:
- 47 minutes ago
- English-progressive 1st world, un petit peu Français, body/nonverbal, gibberish, troll, one-handed type and autocorrect
- Body Type:
- body positive | looks like a she/her femme, prob y ur here, do prefer THEY/THEM as I am closer to cntr of the gender spectrum
- Smoke / Drink:
- Medical MJ and nothing else ever again, my acutely suicidal brain can't handle any more battering
- Body Decorations:
- 3 small tats I'd love covered or removed, tiny gauged ears, rainbow hair
- Pics & Videos:
10 TOKENS OR FAN CLUBvery quick nip suck15 TOKENS OR FAN CLUBspread swollen pi...FAN CLUB EXCLUSIVEbabybat lex was s...FAN CLUB EXCLUSIVEOld phone selfies25 TOKENS OR FAN CLUBputting on a stra...100 TOKENS OR FAN CLUB12+min manual mas...25 TOKENS OR FAN CLUBTitplay b4 shower2 TOKENS OR FAN CLUBFEET SHOW BB
- About Me:
New model? tip me 25+ a thumbs up if you want to promote your newbie cam. My room loves when I interact with other cammers that are genuinely cool.
I'm a circus freak thanks to breast deformation [yes they were deformed by stomach sleeping and bras] so I can suck my own nipples and will always do so for tokens, especially to get me started. I don't suck fake dicks because I rarely suck real ones for reasons related to trauma. I have always prefered to eat cunt, but since i carry cold sores, I'm also very careful with those mucus membranes. Sometimes being careful is just about respecting the amount of time between potential exposures. I should have made porn in my youth, but as i age my ability to do that sort of work is rapidly fading.
My favorite PVTS are mutual masturbation and yes i love anal bc it feels great. [the pspot and gspot are just the back of your sex organ, it's really easy for ME to hit my g from the anus]
Live dicks don't fit anymore unless they are super skinny, thanks to a torn sphincter that affected my mental health so badly for several years, it left me homeless and ruined my life a bunch of times over.
I used to be ashamed of it, but it's just what my asshole looks like now.
If i have the energy I will get out the anal toys, some lingerie, the squirt pad, or a few other things, but I MUCH prefer the privates where you pay for the privilege of seeing me orgasm as I am.
I can get there fast or slow and can do this about 3-5 times a day.
Mutual masturbation is my favorite first activity with a new partner anyway
Watching someone please themselves is honestly the best way to learn how to touch someone.
I have a DOMI, but it takes time to get it working and if I'm not having a good day it's too complicated.
I prefer to be tipped to use my hands and non vibing toys, and the fact that you guys tip the toys WAY more just because it's touching us when you can't, is pretty dumb of you.
If you are a feminist porn buyer you will tip either the person or the show in general, not the toy. You'll get the best and most informative shows when you ask them to show you what they like, and if they don't know, they shouldn't be here.
Good porn practices are still part of having good sex practices and if sadistic weirdos hadn't asked women to X and Y while Z, those fetishes wouldn't even exist today. HOW you engage with the porn industry now is just as important as getting your kinks fed.
I'm becoming aware once more of the ways in which I have been both abused and profited from the repeat performance of that abuse long before performing here. Many of my partners and I seem to have had an unspoken understanding that they should really be paying me for my time so they took care of me in other ways. We called it being fuckbuddies, but we absolutely extend more help to those we are intimate with and I've been fucking most of my friends most of my adult life sometimes absolutely for that reason without really realizing, though usually I was still hoping for a love I was never going to find in that place.
The ways in which I've kept myself safe as a femme person who was "not like other girls" with head injuries among our culture of assault was to simply be willing and stick to sharing my hypersexual, over-cuddled-bb, needs and time with nice nerdy ppl. I appreciated them, they appreciated me, win-win, like here. For me "winning" was never being intentionally violently assaulted, and like anyone else newly part of the dating pool I did imagine that perhaps one of them would work out long term. I still sometimes date men with these hopes because that's how strong this soulmate, life-partner conditioning is. One is not enough for me because I am disabled, not just because I am poly.
I have always needed a team, not a sole supporter, and I'm crap at team building OR playing.
I have ventured into the realm of "cool guys" of various genders and ages, and I myself have been "too cool" for a few of my partners, but very few were not also on the autism spectrum and *all* of those encounters were technically assualts of one kind or another in retrospect.
I have still spent most of my queer life being sexually available to lonely, straightish men without pay, thanks to my own internalized misogyny and homophobia. At one time in my life I rejected feminism the same way incels do now bc i didn't understand feminism for what it was, just it's evangelicals. I FULLY understand the thinking of MRAs without agreeing. What they're missing in the slow loss of one privilege, is the understanding that they still have that privilege to a degree, especially in certain areas, and their responsibility is to use it. If they are UNABLE, that's a different issue and they are succumbing early to an anxiety as futurists, that's justified but not yet timely. (story of my life btw)
All of this said, attempting to earn money legally from my systemic and violent abuse is proving more difficult than I can manage in my current psychological state/physical health.
It was easy with more partner support and the anxiety meds I finally tried to overdose on this year. Without them, the many, many risks that come with doing this work are less worth taking somehow.
In the hospital, instead of being treated like the acutely suicidal and sensitive to meds person I am, I was treated by staff like an addict that had tried to OD on recreational drugs.
THAT THESE PEOPLE GET TREATED DIFFERENTLY IS THE MOST INSANE PART TO ME.
Every fan is an addict, and certainly anyone in America with native ancestry. [the problem with villifying addicts is that then no one will admit to their lesser addictions enough to relate. I'm struggling with being in denial of my own mental health issues because of stigma and I'm progressive! ] Everyone that has OCD is susceptible to addiction, and that's certainly everyone I've ever met on some level.
When I had more queer and poly partners supporting me in this work, I was able to keep my attitude about all of it much more positive. I'm sure I'll find the fortitude to carry on with legal sex work. I still love nerdy, artsy men and I can't see myself doing anything else now, I'm just struggling and as usual, not making the decisions I need to be making in a timely enough manner. I really DO love fapping with y'all.
I'm disabled after coping as best i could, with chronic depression for over 30 years, and i'm finally losing my fight with suicide and it's frustratingly hard to convince people to dump time or money into a person that's deteriorating but doesn't appear to have anything wrong with them.
My support for the last decade has failed me to the same incredible degree that I've been failed my whole life bc esp under duress, I can't communicate the same as other people, and I'm very afraid for my future living as a suicidal trans [not transitioning, still trans] person with ASD that looks like a midwestern milf.
I managed to spend my settlement on Lasik earlier this year, and after buying myself the first cool sunglasses I'd ever been able to wear, I spent the summer in a hospital and then trying to recover from that trauma alone in bed.
*womp womp, poor liberal cuck gobbler is brain damaged and sad" Damn straight, and I'm likely one of the only people with tits that feels bad for the male basement dwelling futurists, because I used to be AND date you. Feminism is FOR YOU too especially if you ever want to date decent women.
- Wish List:
For you to follow me if you like anything you see here.
PRETTY PLEASE for the love of all that is buttholy help me keep that thumbs up score on the desktop site over 100%
cashapp me a few dollars for medical bills and meds or toiletries, do NOT leave a note or message tempting as it is
1001 tk single tip
2018 so far: 2000
10,000 tk single tip
MOST TIPS overall from a single tipper: 9591
Help me buy boring essentials with ANY gift cards to lexpletive gmail (I saved them up to buy the bed I sleep on, which motivated me to anchor myself long enough to get better faster, and some of the equipment I work with). Always the most helpful thing, as much as I love new lingerie and toys, I need qtips and tp more often. reality bites.
or spoil me with level ups
[still no generous fan has ever bought from this list, apparently the independently wealthy are not into chubby midwestern nerds]
I love to travel as much as possible to be with my partners all over the world [from before camming], and occasionally new friends.
Donate to my travel fund to make even one of these things happen.
Invite me somewhere I couldn't otherwise go.
I AM STILL TRYING TO VISIT A SICK FRIEND IN NYC/NJ, A PARTNER IN FRANCE, it would be nice to get to AMSTERDAM before my partner there dies. If you want to see it happen, help me out. Aiming for NEXT summer at this rate.
Just come to Detroit so we can make videos, my ability to travel is gone for awhile.
If you're the kind of perv that shares your porn with your friends, please do!
However you choose to support me in this art, please stay within your budget! I try, like a good faptender, to cut y'all off when you get crazy. Making your situation worse does not make mine better. Give to fapchurch only if and when you can actually afford to. It'll be here. That said, if you can afford to just dump money all over some person, this is true trickle down faponomics. Your money is going directly to help disabled midwestern queer white trash live a minimal and less garbage life. Yes, getting naked on the internet is a LESS garbage life. That's precisely my point. AND a bunch of other pervs benefit.
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